It's not the end...

Well, it's been a long time since the last time I updated this blog...
Somehow it'll be the last update I made on this blog...

Many things were happened since Choco was back from Dubai...
Argues, laughs, smiles, tears and annoying attitude were taking part on our daily interaction...

But seems like we can't walk in the same path and direction anymore...

Don't get me wrong, we both love each other and none of us doubt that, but somehow, love itself doesn't enuff for us to keep going.
Of course we can be selfish and just keep going together whatever it takes...but we just can't be happy by stepping on other's tears, we just can't.
then we decided to end it all, although it was the hardest decision we ever made...well at least for me...

I know that I seems like complaint about Choco a lot, it seems like I were so suffer and annoyed by spending my time with him...but it's not...
God knows how much I love Choco.
I do agree that there was a time that he was really annoying and really made my tears run down (which was many times) but there still more times that he put away his ego and try to understand me when I "scratching" over him due to my "pms". I know that his man-logic were never accept such excuse (I mean the pms)...but his love made him push himself to understand me more...

I know it sounds whine and lousy and whatever u are call it by read this post, well...I don't care...this the only way to speak up my mind before I'm blowing up into a pieces of tears...
I am only a fragile girl who try to be strong for my entire life, by put a mask onto my face, therefore no one knows that I am weak...
Being with Choco for almost a year was something for me, had me by my side, had someone that I know care for me that much...and see all my bad and uncool side of my attitude was never easy...and for him to take all of my bad and good side was never be a simple decision also...
It's hurt for me...more than I can imagine to have him taken from me, I DON'T WANT IT, I CAN'T...but I have too...
I know it will be hard for him also if I was arguing...although he will win over the argue (like all the time... :p)
It feels like the shell been cracked and expose the fragile side unprotected...
It just I need him...not by being here all the time, but the feeling of have him and know that he cares just make me stronger...I don't know how to explain tho...

But then again...
I can't be selfish by keep him by my side...cuz I know it'll hurt him even more...
I know that I have to learn that love is never taken...is given...
I was have him, that's awesome...but I know somehow I have left my presence inside his heart forever.
I know that I still have his heart now, until...I don't know...someday when he meet someone who will fill in the place I left...but I know although it will be, but there'll be still a tiny place that keep my presence inside his heart...
not in a bad way though...it just, we had so many things in common, and we did have fun back days...they were too beautiful to forget...

I will do the same too...

So Choco~ if you read this...
thanks for every moments we had together, although it's hurt but I never regret what was I had chosen earlier, to be with u...
Although I know that it will be like this soon or later, but I know that nothing can be replaced your love to me...
I know you said that "I won't never be able to love u as much as you are to me..." but I know that u are...it just we did it in a different way...
In my standard, of course u won't ever win over me because you never be a woman, but I know the time when you take a deep breath when I acted annoying and still smile, time when u try to steal ur time within your tight deadline because you know that I need some care and you don't want me to feel neglect, just smile when I shouted at your for something small but I think that u were wrong, or force yourself to hand out with me at weekend although u were sick because you know that you've been busy for a week...
I know that you love me...although it takes all my effort to made u say that to me... :p

And I'd love to have you as my friend hunnie...
I know that we need to stop now, because we already tried...if you really meant for me, i know that I will have you again someday...but if not...I think we already made a right decision...

I love you so much Choco~
too bad that we are different... :) It just bad...

Tuan Muda dan...Babu?

Happy Friday Tweeps...#eh... *disorientasi* *ini dimana?*

Anyway...still remember with my favorite phrase of "Putri Cantik dan Tukang Kebon" which WAS represented Vanilla (as Putri Cantik) and Choco (as Tukang Kebon)...

Well...firstly let me update u with Choco already gave up on cewe-cewe-arabic-yang-ohmaigat-keren-bangets-itu (baca: ya eyalah...cewe2 arabic kan lagi ga butuh tukang kebon, emang mau berkebon kaktus? hhhh~) and back to Indonesia...

dan akhirnya...tiba saatnya gw bertemu dy...
errr...sebenernya it wasn't something sih...just because we haven't met up for like 2 months so I was a bit nervous...a BIT ok...not much...

And then I saw him...

...

HAH?!??!?

Ok, I think it's either I have total katarak on my eyes or alien has taken Choco's body...but...WHERE'S MY TUKANG KEBON?? *sambil naro punggung tangan di jidat dan ngesot dilantai*

the man I saw, wear blazer...shirt and jeans...and...SENDAL JEPIT...ok...that's my Choco~
But still...
Blazer??
oh Helloooooow...? *langsung berpikir keras apakah kta mau ke kondangan atau cuma mau nge-mall*

Ok..ok..I ADMIT that he looked d*mn gorgeous...but...ok...how do I say it...
Remember the picture I posted above?

See my point...

NO?

GW GA MAU JADI BABU...T____T
because it started to turn upside down into "Tuan Muda and the babu" ... I want princess...give me back my princessness *ok, I'm not sure if the word is really existed*

So this new Choco is a shopaholic (trust me, I almost gave up to accompany him shop thru 3 different malls in a day) and brand follower (I can smell ZARA vapor out from his new suit, and YES I SERIOUSLY CAN SMELL HOW MUCH IT COST also) ...

Dan akhirnya...

Gw pun harus mengeluarkan baju2 super keren gw (or I need to shop if I don't have any) untuk merebut kembali gelar gw...

Doakan saya...

Merdeka!! *menatap pedih ke kredit kard yang uda limit lagi padahal jatuh temponya masi lama*

Rejeki di bulan Puasa...zzzzz =___=

among these tight deadline and overload works...
I am back to update my blog... *pake icon bowing >> ga ada icon soalnya*

Well, sebenernya gw uda bingung mau ngapain...(baca: gw ga nganggur...tapi kebanyakan kerjaan...jadi plis don't "ngepel aja di ruma gw" and stuffs =___=) dan ditengah2 kebingungan dan dilemma gw (mau ngelempar laptop atau ngebakar tugas2 gw) gw pun kembali menulis blog (baca: menuliskan tumpukan celaan untuk Choco *ngikik riang gembira*)

Actually it happen long time ago during the fasting season...

So me and Choco as usual had a date (setelah dengan berat hati Choco meninggalkan server2 dan laptop yang selalu dielus2 dengan rasa sayang yang berlebihan itu) so we decided to met up at 5 at Pepper Lunch...
I said to him to meet me at Pepper Lunch SENAYAN CITY and he agreed...

Then I reserved taxi which happened to pissed me off since it didn't show within 1 HOUR, I assume it took a wrong turn and already made its half way to BANDUNG by then =___=
So I was texted Choco and said that I might be late a bit...
Then he was responded and said that he ALSO be late since he is currently engaged on something-that-he-didn't-mention-and-left-me-wondering-why-he-should-engage-on-something-during-our-date and...gw bete... =__=

Dan akibat dari ke-bete-an gw (yang terakumulasi karna Choco dengan cantiknya sibuk "mengurus sesuatu yang penting" dan menurut pengendusan gw adalah softer version dari "I can't leave my laptop and servers so I have to stay a bit longer for ngelus2 mereka") akirnya gw lupa bawa duit...

kurang dramatis?

GW LUPA BAWA DUIT LOH...SUMPE DEH... =____=;;;

Akhirnya gw dengan paniknya menyingkirkan harga diri gw dan telpon Choco (yang tadinya mau gw cuekin karna gw pengen sayang2an sama tembok aja while he's sayang2an sama server en leptop)...
Dan ga nyambung... -___-;;;

Akhirnya setelah gw diam, tangkup tangan dan angguk2 3x...gw menemukan 2 lembar 10ribuan, 1 lembar 5ribuan dan 7 lembar serebuan... (1st lesson...INGATLAH untuk menyimpan uangmu di...mana2, siapa tau pas lo dalam situasi terjepit, lo bisa menemukan oase di tengah gurun...*apasih* *ga nyambung* ya pokonya gitu deh)

Abis itu Choco baru telpon gw *telat banget sih loeee...*
Ternyata...dia uda sampe di senayan...

Ga lama, I finally reached Senci...dan langsung menju foodcourt as Choco said that he was queued at pepper lunch...
Dan sesampainya di pepper lunch...

...

Err...jangankan Choco...antrian depan pepper lunch aja kaga ada.... -___-;;

Dengan insting yang kuat bahwa si Choco dengan cantiknya tidak mensinkronisasi antara pendengaran dan kaki...gw pun telpon choco...

Vanilla : kamu dimana...? *mulai bete* *uda laper* *bisa makan orang*
Choco : Aku lagi antri di Pepper Lunch...
Vanilla : Di...
Choco : *dengan polos* Plasa Senayan
*DUAARRRRR* *terdengar back sound medan perang dikejauhan*
Vanilla : Kan aku bilang tadi di Senayan City...
Choco : Oh...kamu dimana?
Vanilla : ya di Senayan City loh..masa di TA??? *siapin bom molotov*
Choco : Oh...kayanya kamu bilang ke Plasa Senayan...? Kan mau makan Pepper Lunch...
Vanilla : *ngarahin rudal ke Plasa Senayan, depan Pepper Lunch* aku bilang Senayan City...di ini juga ada Pepper Lunch...
Choco : *ketawa* *belum sadar akan apa yang akan menimpa* Oh...gitu...jadi gimana...
Vanilla : ya udah aku ksana...

*RUDAL LAUNCHED*

Dan jadilah gw dengan rok mini dan high heel nyebrang ke Plasa Senayan dengan sibuk megangin rok gw yang berkibar-kibar kaya bendera dengan diiringi suit2an para tukang ojek yang pengen gw tancepin jidatnya pake heels gw...

Sampe ke atas...gw melihat Choco lagi ngantri pake...KAOS OBLONG...
sambil bawa bungkusan kresek gede...
sambil nyengir2 minta di sambit palang kereta api... zzzzzzz~

Pas gw liat, ternyata isinya kado...dengan great expectation gw bertanya

Vanilla : Choco, itu buat sapa?
Choco : oh...buat temen, nanti ketemuwan...
Vanilla : ...

Dan gw pun bete sementara Choco nyengir2 nista...

Pas makan...ternyata kadonya buat gw...berisi boneka sapi *yang bernama Momo*. Ternyata...Choco beliin boneka sapi dulu sebelom ke Senci PS...

Well, sometimes Choco *with his lack of romanticism thought* is really sweet at his own way...and I really appreciate it (Momo is become my fave one now ^^)

But not for made me JALAN KAKI dengan rok berkibar2 itu... =____=

*sigh*

Helloooo World... (or hello me...since it's only me talking to myself here...?!)

It's been a month since Choco went to Dubai, and YES HE'S STILL THERE...cuz he still attracted by the "windy" of Dubai, windy in this case stand for Cewe2 arabic yang oohh maaii gaaattt kereen bangeeettss itu loh... *ngasah parang*

So I was surfing about Dubai, like well...I don't have an peculiar interest on the middle earth and European countries actually (except Italy...land where the Greek's God face structure are engraved onto the living creature called by human...in short -- sumpah ganteng2 pisan euy cowonya...*ngeces ngeces* ) but since Choco is currently there, so I am a bit curious...

And...It leads me to the grand discovery of the year that Babyphat and Juicy Couture open up their outlet at DUBAI *histeris* aaa...aa...aaaa...a...aa...
Segeralah dengan hati berbunga2 gw mulai menuliskan daftar titipan oleh2 gw ke Choco...disertai dengan capture gambar dari tiap2 titipan gw (kurang baik apa gw? selain tulisan, gw juga menyiapkan visualisasi titipan gw, ga ada kan orang lain yang kaya gw??)

Then, when I chat with Choco...gw pun mengutarakan keinginan gw...

Vanilla : Choco...*manja*
Choco : Iyah...
Vanilla : mmm...vanilla bole nitip ga? *diucapkan dengan tingkap kemanjaan yang diatas rata2, yang dipercaya dapat menaklukan uler sekalipun*
Choco : *singkat, padat dan lugas* enggak!
Vanilla : ... *masi berharap Choco bercanda*
Choco : ...
Vanilla : *1st attempt* ya uda kalo ga bole...
Choco : *kasi icon senyum dengan tidak berdosanya*
Vanilla : *2nd attempt* Vanilla ngerti kok, pasti ribet yah kalo vanilla nitip...
Choco : kamu kecewa yah >> menurut lo??
Vanilla : *3rd attempt* engga kok, walopun vanilla pengen...tapi vanilla ngerti (baca : kaga kecewa...cuma bawaan pengen nyakar pake garukan rumput aje...=___=)
Choco : *icon senyum >> yang jadi terlihat seperti icon minta di geplak* hehe

dan Choco *dengan tanpa rasa bersalah* terus ngoceh dan amazingly gw masi bisa tanggepin...walopun perbendaharaan kata gw tiba2 menyusut jadi "mmm", "iya", "ga tau", "engga"...
Dan tingkap kepekaan seorang cowo-which-is-dapat-di-ekualisasikan-dengan-tingkak-kepekaan-seekor-keong-racun-pun membuat Choco balik lagi ke topic yang tanpa disadarinya dapat mengancam nyawa dan eksistensi spesiesnya...(yeah because all men in the world are the SAME)

Choco : Vanilla menyembunyikan perasaan yah...
Vanilla : *mikir ini cowo kok berani mati banget yah, uda dialihin masi aja balik ke topik itu, ini sih sama aja kaya dia nari2 telanjang sambil bawa daging di kandang singa* ...
Choco : *kasi icon ngikik yang sumpah minta di colok pake jempol kaki* Vanilla kecewa yah...
Vanilla : *DAAAA...???!?*
Choco : Choco kan takutnya ga bisa beliin, nanti vanilla kecewa...*innocent, berasa uda memberikan jawaban yang sangat wise...hhh pantes aja supermen poninya kriting...eh...ga nyambung*
Vanilla : Iya tau...tapi kan choco bisa basa basi dulu ke vanilla, ga langsung nolak...
Choco : Basa basi gimana?
Vanilla : Ya...kan bisa bilang "ya nanti coba choco cariin yah..."
Choco : Oh gitu yah...tapi klo choco ngomong gitu, trus choco ga beliin, nanti vanilla kecewa...
Vanilla : *menghela nafas panjang...* (note: I wonder if the boys which always committed that "they are VERY LOGICALLY" can somehow be MORE CLEVER at least...once?) kan tinggal bilang..."tapi kalo ga dapet gpp yah?"
Choco : ... *well I think he is currently THINK really hard about my SIMPLE-and-will-simply-solve-the-problem statement*
Vanilla : Choco...
Choco : Iya yah...bener juga...
Vanilla *nyengir pasrah* ...
Choco : Lagian kan vanilla pengertian...ga mungkin ngambek gara2 choco ga bisa beliin titipan (helloo...oleh2...bukan nitip...kindly note) vanilla...
Vanilla : *=____= Helllooooo...where have that thought been before???* iyah heh heh heh >> ketawa maksa

Well...refer to my very previous statement...we girls need to understand boys more...well it might sounds unfair (or whatever) but it's impossible to make them aware of our feeling...
note : it's not they AREN'T CARE about our feeling, it's about the only "feeling" they've been handled is (or are) laptop, motorcycle, car, server...and REMEMBER that those things only accept straight order and give straight respond! So girls...if you REALLY want men to UNDERSTAND u, please make yourself available to be inserted by a CD and formatted, because that's the simple way of men understanding

Yes...they love u girls...they just have no ability to distinguish us from their "toys" except we have more curves instead...*sigh*

Boys Will be Boys...and Choco will be Tukang Kebon nyasar =__=

I'm back...(for now...I dunno if I can drag myself to write again after this...oohhh...I'm such a optimistic...*err what's wrong with me? I'm starting to be very sarcastic over myself?? and now I'm talking to myself...hhh...I really need to get a life then...*)

So here's the short update from Choco...

He's now happily work in Dubai...for 2 MONTHS...(it's wrote in CAPS LOCK not because I'm shock, but only just to remind him that his happy moment will be ended soon...since he said that he LOVES being in Dubai, because there's windy *well, maybe I need to buy a mini fan so he can feel "windy" all the time*...but I know that deep down...the poor windy weather is only a camouflage for the real reason...)

Well yeah, I was really sad...*poor me* since I cannot do long distance thingy...

Please don't blame me, as i told you earlier...I KNOW that Choco loves me, but somehow...he have a difficulties to show his loves to me...around his laptop and servers (which happened to be nearby him like...err...all the time?)

So yeah...gw di cuekin lah...*pergi ke pojokan bersama tumpukan cucian kotor* -- ok...it's dramatically lebay...

Anyway, waktu Choco brangkat...gw sempet nangis2...

sadly, I'm not sure if I was crying because I will miss him or because I can't win over the men romanticism between Choco dan Mr.B...

So there was Mr.B who took over my place to hugs and melambai2kan saputangan di anjungan keberangkatan...*wait...I won't do that???!!* err...anyway...sepertinya Choco ga berpelukan deh...or he did?? Well...nevermind *males bayanginnya =___=*

The communication goes well between us actually, well...goes well as long as we have enuff balance...*nangis guling2*

Somehow...LDR is really killing...my wallet T____T

mahal... *sayup2 terdengar suara nyanyian "cintaku berat di ongkos" it does...*

So I have to utilize ym to stay in touch with Choco...but somehow...internet di kamar Choco agak ogah2an menancapkan existence-nya...jadinya sinyalnya naik turun dan yang terjadi adalah...

Vanilla : Choco...

Choco is offline

...

Choco is online

Choco : Vanilla lagi apa?

Choco is offline

...

Vanilla : Choco kok offline? =(

Choco is online

Choco : engga offline kok sayang...

Choco is offline

...

Vanilla is bakar menyan hhhhhh~

Ok...gw lebay...tapi yah itu se-menyebalkan itu...long distance definitely doesn't for us...

Someday...pas lagi chattingan sama Choco, I noticed that the conversation went smoothly...

Vanilla : Choco...internetnya ga mati2?

Choco : Iyah, ini choco lagi di koridor depan kamar...

Vanilla : *terharu dengan pengorbanan choco* whew...km di koridor depan kamar internetan? *mulai curiga* hmmm...km mau ngecengin cewe2 yah, jadi sengaja berdiri di koridor?

Choco : enggaaa @__@

Vanilla : *terharu* ...

Choco : Cewe2 di hotel jelek sayang...

and here's come the final bantingan...

Choco : kalo cewe arabic di mall itu baru oohh maaii gaaattt...keren bangeeeetttsss...

Vanilla : *nyiapin nuklir tepat sasaran yang diarahkan langsung ke jidat Choco biar pinteraaaannnn!!!*

Hhhhh~ Well...boss will be boys...ga perduli walopun tukang kebon ehm Choco...tetep aja cowo...yang matanya pengen colok pake jempol kaki biar kriyep2 skalian...*kriyep2 itu apa ya? well but ut sounds good...^^*

Cerdas Cermat Story~~

Ok this time, I will post something that actually reveal all my stupidity...*SIGH*

Ceritanya, kemarin I was asking Choco to accompany me to my cousin's wed, hmmm...tau kan tradisi u-have-to-bring-your-partner-to-the family-wed-otherwise-the-families-will-seriously-have-PITY-on-u (panjang banget karna mengandung emosi dan kekesalan gw hhh~).

err...tapi gw ngajakin Choco bukan karena alesan itu sih...cuma biar dia agak perbaikan gizi aja bisa makan makanan yang menyehatkan di resepsi...fusilli cumi manis *terdengar suara ambulance dikejauhan* kkkk~

Dan karena gw ngajakin satu orang temen kantor gw (yang masi *cring cring* kalo liat cowo2 korea) maka gw mengajak salah satu stok (berminat?? *cling cling*) cowo korea gw untuk diperkenalkan kepada temen gw ini...

Ternyata temen gw ga dateng ~~~~~~

*krik krik*

Jadilah gw kaya grup CERDAS CERMAT yang hangat dan menyenangkan =____= hhhhh~

Gw sebagai juru bicara dengan Choco disebelah kanan saya dan Korea di sebelah kiri saya...Sooooo Sweet... *menghela nafas getir*

Question : Ih, seneng donk lo...dikelilingin cowo2 gitu...

Well, hellooo...??? Menurut lo?? Kayanya mendingan masukin pala gw di bolongan pahatan es daripada trap in that kind awkward situation...sayangnya huruf pahatan es-nya cm J sama C, jadi ga ada bolongannya...

Choco uda bete...err...yah normal sih...(gw jadi tau, hmm ternyata Choco bisa jealous~~ *nyengir* err...atau jangan2 Choco bete gara2 ga bisa deketan sama si Cowo korea?? :-s) mana ada yang suka sih kalo mesti "SHARE" (pinjem istilah Choco yang disebut2 terus selama perjalanan ke fx - di fx - perjalanan pulang...makasih buat sindirannya yang sangat mengena sayang, the weapon is in yours now...*SIGH*) pasangan sama orang laen... >_<

Tapi gw jadi tau satu hal, kalo selama ini gw ngeluh soal Choco yang minus, minus, minus...ga ada bagus2nya...*lebay* kemaren gw tau klo Choco itu...

Hmm...it was purely unintentionally situation, but still the way he handled the feeling amaze me...klo gw ada di posisi Choco mungkin gw bakalan BETE dan NGAMUK abis2an...seriously I was considering about my feeling if I filled up on his place...

but Choco cuma diem...well he said that he felf uncomfortable, but he can manage his feeling fast, dia nggak ngomel2 atau nyalahin gw...dan dia bisa tetep senyum dan temenin gw, yang ada malah gw yang ngerasa AMAT SANGAT BERSALAH T___T

At the end, malah akhirnya gw memilih untuk "kabur" dan meninggalkan Choco dan Korea itu untuk berbagi kasih...dan ternyata mereka menikmati saat2 berdua dan gosipin gw...well...I take it as my punishment deh... >_<

So at the end of the day, I was escaping myself to FX with Choco, and spent the rest of the day there...of course di sepanjang perjalanan, topic "SHARE" menjadi bahan pembicaraan yang "hangat" yang ngebuat gw SANGAT pengen tukeran tempat sama supir taksi (baca: gw bukan pengen jadi supir taksi, tapi gw pengen jadi yang nyetir biar supir taksinya aja yang duduk sebelah Choco >___<)

yeah, of course he was only teasing me...

It takes a mature person with a fully understanding and trustfulness into this kind of situation, although Choco said that he didn't like to share and NEVER been in this kind of situation before...he was understand that I wasn't intend to do that in purpose...and he understand that grunting will only hurt me even more...so he was felt annoyed, but he was trying to hold back his feeling because he CARE about my feeling...

It needs love to wipe off the irritating feeling of him of course...so I guess, Choco WILL NEVER BE act like the prince charming in the fairy tale I heard when I was kid...(err...bukannya dia ga charming sih...err...tapi bukannya charming juga...*dilemma* kkk)

but who the he*l need the prince charming now, fairy tale is sooo lame, I think Choco is my laptop guy, who will help me to write another blast off (without any romantic part-of course) love story with motorcycle and internet connection (oh, well...no horse allowed on the street and people might just shot the pigeon and eat them right away...)

Love u just the way u are Choco~~ (err...sometimes...i mean the "just the way u are part" kkkk^^)

The art of SMS...

Although Blackberry already introduced the new way of convenient communication called by the BlackBerry Messenger (oohh...skarang uda ada versi barunya lohh...kalo kirim picture ga perlu report download2...blablabla...*plak*)

But SMS somehow still lead in their way for non-BB community or the BB community that aren't activate the BIS service...=____=

Dan Choco...kebetulan adalah seorang truly NON-BB activist (baca : tabungan kemarin uda habis buat bayar cicilan kredit tukang sayur sama bayar akua galon isi ulang...ckck hidup memang kejam nak *nyengir lebar*) ...jadi komunikasi kita dilakukan dengan cara telpon (noted: aktifitas telpon ini memang sering dilakukan pada saat awal2 jadian...kemudian berkurang setelah Choco menemukan cinta lainnya di LEPTOP...tapi setidaknya...Choco masi suka berjanji akan telpon *dunia nyata* trus telpon *dunia mimpi*...) dan SMS...

Entah apapun bentuknya, cewe itu pasti nunggu2 segala macam bentuk komunikasi (dan perhatian penuh rasa cinta-which-only-be-happened-in-fairy-tale) dari cowonya kan?

So I think it's obviously normal to wait SMS from Choco...well, I'm not saying Choco itu pelit SMS (mungkin dia agak irit SMS disaat tagihan kredit panci dan centongnya jatuh tempo) tapi ada saat2 dimana he seems not available to respond to my SMS...

situasi yang (of course) ga akan dipahami cewe sebagai makhluk multi tasking...

Pas Choco lagi sibuk (masang2in kabel...well...engga sihh...I don't exactly know what he's doing, but it sounds like mas2 tukang masang2 antene sih...kkkkk~ sorry Choco...Vanilla ga maksud menghina km...km kan tukang kebon ya...^^) dia bisa menghilang entah kemana seharian...

Dan alasan sibuk ini kadang2 susah banget di mengerti sama yang namanya cewe >_<

So girls never get buys then?

Nah~ Girls can be busy, but...se-busy2nya cewe...dia akan masi punya cukup waktu untuk ngebales sms...

Choco busy cases

#1

Vanilla : Sibuk yah?

Choco : ^^

#2

Vanilla : Sibuk yah? Vanilla kangen niy...

Choco : Iyah ^^ (see...the "kangen" seems to be invisible for Choco...)

#3

Vanilla : Choco~ Sibuk yah? Vanilla pengen nonton di velvet...uda lama ga nonton niy, Vanilla kangen Choco

Choco : ^^ Km ga malu klo aku berantakin bantal? (SEE? "kangen" part seems like still be invisible -_-;;;)

Vanilla busy case

Choco : Vanilla~ km sibuk yah?

Vanilla : Iya niy...sibuk hiks T_T kerjaan banyak banget, mana report harus slese hari ini juga...whew, blablabla

See the difference?

Well, sometimes we (baca : CEWE...iyaaaa...puass?? =___=) fuss on something base on our own habit...yup of course cewe akan selalu punya waktu untuk bales sms, telpon, terima telpon...no matter how busy is she...because we are MULTITASKING (and it explain why we are called as CLEVER...the only thing made us dumber is just we love that un-multitasking, untidy, lazy, selfish, flirting, smelly creature called by MAN *SIGH*) dan as I already explained before...jangan berharap cowo akan melakukan hal yang sama (baca : SMS panjang lebar penuh cinta dan kasih sayang) well, sadly you'll find yourself hang to death due to your desperation of hoping (ok, I know...lebay kan?)...

So you must find yourself ask this question to yourself (well...I DID)

"Jadi...cowo itu ga sayang donk, apa susahnya sih bales sms bilang sayang, kangen...kan cm beberapa menit"

>> Menurut kamus cowo "^^" = (sama dengan) "I Love u sayang, aku sibuk tapi aku tetep sayang kamu, sabar yah..."

Karna Cowo ga akan bisa multitasking...jadi buat mereka ngebales SMS adalah suatu effort yang sangat besar untuk dilakukan demi menunjukkan rasa cintanya kepada cewenya *sumpah gw berasa dangdut alay* T_T

Karna susah untuk mereka fokus ke 2 hal sekaligus means setelah bales SMS mereka akan kehilangan "jejak" dari kerjaan mereka dan ada kemungkinan untuk tracking dari awal lagi...(see...they are not as smart as they're bragging of)

So, well...men do love us, but they're just not that SMART...^_____^

Does Vanilla love Choco?

Of Course I do love him...well, don't get me wrong, our problem only extent to we cannot stay in the romantic situation for too long (well, wait for 1 sec and one of of will GLADLY ruin the it over -_-;;)

But I do love Choco...

In fact...I'm just an ordinary girl who loves his man more than he loves me...(kenapa Choco?? mau protes apa *ngasah parang*)

And trust me...yes I'm the kind of (ordinary) girl that asking (dengan nada manja) "Choco...kapan2 kita nonton di velvet lagi yuks...we haven't dated for a while loh" and beautifully answered by Choco as "Kamu gak malu kalo aku ngacak2 tempat tidur lagi...?"

OHMAWGAWD *pengen ngelempar kampak rasanya*

See...I never understand how his brain process the information indeed...

Kenapa sih dia ga jawab aja "Iya Vanilla...Choco juga pengen nonton disitu kok sayang~"

*SEE...refer to my statement about ruin the romantic moment*

Tapi ya...I love him anyway *agaksetengahgakrelaginingomongnya hihihi~* ^^

Walapun a friend of mine told me that I was look cool to cover up Me-Choco relationship and she obviously sense "pandangan-Choco-yang-penuh-cinta" *Gosh, I'm having a goosebumps while writing this statement...eww -_-;;;* upon me...but seriously...I love him more than that "pandangan cinta or whatever itu lah" ^o^ >> ya plis deee...klo engga sayang ngapain coba aku jalan sama tukang kebon...ehm Choco sayang *muah* ^^

Kalo Choco...sayang Vanilla ga?

I know that he loves me...soalnya...ermmm...Choco ini sabar banget menghadapi tingkat emosi gw yang diatas rata2 (well my PMS period is the period left while I'm not having my period...nah lo...bingung kan kkkk~)...I can tell that this guy show his love by his continually support and patient on me...^^

...dan kata2 alay ga karuan kalo lagi berdua...(if u meet him outside...he's not that cool...jangan tertipu...waspadalah!!!)

So...Choco...vanilla loves u...

>> Ooohh...go ahead...kamu mau ngomong "Kamu kangen sama Choco karna Choco ganteng kan sayang?" *ngasah kuku buat nyakar Choco*

What's wrong with u...GUYS?????

That's exactley my fave quote toward Choco~

honestly...I never understand the way Choco think on something..(dan gw yakin banget, Choco juga ga ngerti the way I think on sumthing in return)...ok let's say bilang "sayang"...

Entah kenapa, gw itu pengen denger Choco ngomong sayang ke gw verbally (dengan batas kewajaran yang normal yang tingkat kealayan yang rendah tentunya)...well, I KNOW that Choco loves me, but somehow...gw pengeeeeennn ajaaa dengernya, gpp kan??

Tapi cowo (note: gw ga bilang Choco yah!!!) kadang2 suka (terlalu banyak) mikir "hhhh...gw ga ngomong juga harusnya lo tau kan kalo gw sayang lo, otherwise ngapain gw spending my precious time dengan makhluk yang complicated (tapi manis, imut, sexy, loveable, blablabla) kaya lo..."

Tapi cewe (ok...gw sih yang mikir, tapi gw uda konfirmasi ke beberapa temen cewe gw, well, kalo there's a girl out there yang merasa disagree sama statement gw, congrats, lo berarti tipe cewe langka yang sangat mengerti cowo *minta di ajarin*) juga berpikir "yahhh...kenapa sih ngomong suka aja ribet, toh lo ga akan mati klo ngomong sayang, lagian...kan kita pacaran, apa salahnya sih ngomong sayang"

hmm...(luckily) gw ga pernah arguing sama Choco tentang hal ini sih...

Cuma kadang2 Choco sengaja banget teasing gw (Oh, dia emang KURANG AJAR indeed!!! zzzz) dengan ngomong SAYANG dengan LEBAY dan kadar ke-ALAY-an yang uda OVERDOSIS...

(Feel free to disagree if u think "TAYANG", "TAYIANK", "SAIYANKH" is count as a WORD!!)

Mmm...balik lagi ke pola pikir cowo en cewe yang bedaaaa banget (please don't disagree...there's only 2 option left, u are doing self denying or u are dating your kind -_-;;) ternyata relationship itu bukan sebatas "I love u, u love me, we are happy family..." *zzzzz...salah lagu* well...guess what, relationship comes with self-sacrifice and maturity of mind...

Cowo yang super cuek and (SOK) cool ketemu dengan putri cantik yang super sensi dan butuh perhatian dan kasih sayang (lebay detected)...ya sampe film 2012...erm maksudnya sampe kiamat juga ga ada ketemu...disini diperlukan yang namanya pengorbanan dari pihak cowo dan laki-laki *devilish grin* ^____^

~~ Maksudnya cowo dan cewe... -_-;;

Cowo harus berusaha ngerti akan kebutuhan cewe yang haus akan kasih sayang (walopun kayanya cowo2 juga sedikit takut si cewe akan mencari kasih sayang yang lainnya...*wink wink*) sementara cewe harus rela di TIGA-in bahkan EMPAT-in cintanya sama hobby, temen2 ataupun LAPTOPnya si Choco (jiaahhh...curhat colongan)...

Tapiii...menurut pengakuan Choco, walopun cowo itu sok cool en sok ga butuh cewenya, cowo itu sayang sama cewe-nya, cuma...karna fokus si cowo ga cuma ke cewe-nya, jadi kadang2 cewe nganggep cowo itu cuek en ga perhatian...well, sadly, cowo itu GA AKAN PERNAH menyamai cewe dalam hal rasa sayang kok...

But well, that make boys are boys, aren't they?

Dan kalo lagi b2...Choco ini manjanya setengah mati...bukan manja sih, lebih ke arah manjain-ala-mas2-alay-yang-foto-pake-background-pohon-kelapa-trus-tangannya-ditaro-kedagu -_-;;; (dan dia masi bisa bilang itu romantis...OH Plisssss T___T)

intinya sih...cowo dan cewe harus saling ngerti...ga bisa bilang siapa yang lebih ngertiin siapa, malah ujung2nya brantem...pada dasarnya sih...kalau salah satu pihak merasa nyaman dengan pihak yang lainnya, maka dia akan berusaha untuk memberikan rasa nyaman yang sama in return...

that's how the relationship should be worked...^^

Tapi Choco...kamu harus tetep bilang sayang ke Vanilla...emang Vanilla bisa baca pikiran apa zzzzzzz....-_-;;;

Stupid Episodes

like other commonly relationship...well, we do love each other (awee...such a sweet intro isn't it ^^) but sadly...it seems like we have our own way to express our feeling to each other like destroy and ruin all the romantic moments built up earlier *sigh*

So, it's really common to see these kind of situation...

#1

Vanilla : Choco mau coba makanan Vanilla...?

Choco : (dengan rakusnya) mau..mau...tapi Vanilla ga bole nyobain makanan Choco...

Vanilla : ... -_-;; (sapaaaa juga yang mao makanan lu zzz)

#2

Choco : Kamu cantik banget sih hari ini sayang...

Vanilla : *mikir* kamu mau ngutang yah?

Choco : -_-;;;

#3

Choco : Sayang...kamu cantik ga hari ini?

Vanilla : Ya cantiklah...plis dee...

Choco : iyaaa...maksudnya cantiknya gimana? cantik kaya lenong apa gimana?

Vanilla : #$%^&*$%!$%^@#

#4

Vanilla : Choco~ Vanilla kangen loh sama Choco...

Choco : (dengan muka nyebelin yang minta didorong ke jurang) aku emang ngangenin ya sayang? aku loveable ya? kamu kangen terus ya...

Vanilla : *langsung ilfil dan pengen muntah*

#5

Vanilla : kenapa sih kamu suka sama aku?

Choco : Soalnya...kamu kaya kucing...

Vanilla : ????? (ni manusia punya kecintaan berlebihan sama binatang apa gimana sih? sebenernya gw membuat keputusan yang bener ga sih dengan pacaran sama dia *cemas*)

#6

Choco : Vanilla sayang, kenapa sih kam mau jadian sama aku...

Vanilla : Hmm...soalnya kamu jelek...kamu tau kan, kalo dunia ini adil, pilihannya adalah cantik en pacaran sama orang jelek atau jelek pacaran sama orang ganteng...aku kan cantik...^^

Choco : *muka males* ...

and here comes the GRAND FINALE...

Vanilla : Choco mau dibeliin makan ga?

Choco : Mauu....

Vanilla : Nasi capcay choptix yah...

Choco : Engga ah Vanilla...mahal T_T

Vanilla : Ya udah...aku yang bayarin deh...

Choco : ya karna kamu yang bayarin Vanilla...jangan mahal2...

Vanilla : ... *pengertian banget yah si Choco*

Choco : Soalnya kalo mahal2...kamu BAYARINNYA cm SEKALI sayang, kalo murah kan BAYARINNYA BISA SAMPE SEMINGGU...

Vanilla : ... (pinjem garpu ke tukang mi ayam terdekat buat ditancepin di jidat Choco biar PINTERAN DIKIT!)

Do u want to be my girl...well...U HAVE TO..

So...after million attempts of PDKT (including ngatain gw JELEK dan hinaan2 lainnya >> I am not even sure if he likes me or just hates me)so I finally decided to hang out with Choco...

We were going to PP and I spent my 4 hours to chose over my outfit and make-ups (yes I was doing that..for this needs-not-even-reach-on-2-mins-to-prepare-everything guy...life sucks girls, indeed T_T)
And the result was...I was LATE...(well, that's not my fault, he only took 2 minutes to prepared while I almost break my room down with those piles of clothes *sigh*).
When he reached PP, I was finished my upper eye-liner and replied to him that I already at taxi heading there...so he was waiting for almost 1 hour (and NO, I wasn't feel that guilty actually ^^)

And when he saw me, I knew I DID IT WELL (I mean my make-ups thingy), he almost had his jaw dropped and said to me "kamu bisa keren juga" *GUBRAAKKK* (jatoh terguling2 dari eskalator) GOSH...I WONDER IF HE ALREADY SOLD HIS BRAIN OUT??? -_-;;;

Nothing special on our date actually, we were watching movie at Blitz...tapi nontonnya di Velvet class...mm...ga tau velvet class? Coba liat disini *males ngejelasin* ^^

So we were about to share the bed to watch the movie (I kinda forget the title actually)

U guys may think that we were having a romantic dating at that time, well...it should be romantic since there were a nice and comfy bed with piles of fluffy pillows and bag of popcorn...but...

Selama 20 menit pertama, Choco dengan NORAKnya hampir menghancurkan our bed dengan ngerubah2 posisi bantal sampe uda ga jelas semua susunannya (I was sooo afraid that he might accidentally throwing off one of the pillow and hit one of the audience nearby, at that time I was so ready with the I-swear-to-God-that-I-don't-know-him face) ga tau deh...I was trying to tolerance on him by thinking "well...mungkin dia biasanya tidur di bale-bale kali..jadi kalo dikasi kasur enpuk dan bantal, jadi salting...zzzz -_-;;;"

After the movie, we decided to hit Minus 2 (ask Choco and he will said it as "itu kan...20 MINUTES" -_-;;) 2 glass of cold beer, 1 midori melon and Martini were definitely hit us at that time *yumz*

Dan di tengah almost drunk-nya gw, Choco tiba2 bisik2 ke gw "Vanilla...lo tau ga, sebenernya gw pengeeenn banget minta lo buat jadi special girl in my life...tapi kok gw ga bisa"

...

??????? At that time, gw pengen banget nancepin ANAK PANAH ke JIDAT nih manusia...WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM???

Ga jelas banget kan? Trus gw mesti gimana coba? Should I say "Oh...kasian deh gw" zzzzz...dan gw bener2 BETE banget...aneh banget ga sih, kayanya sepanjang sejarah perabadan manusia yang telah gw lewatin (iya tau...lebay kan??) seumur2 gw ga pernah deh nemu yang kaya gini...well, ga tau deh kalo ternyata dia berasal dari jaman purbakala gitu...hhhhh~~~

Dan gw cuekin dia...

Sampe tiba2 dia ngomong ke gw "

Choco : Vanilla, gw ga perduli lo mau atau engga, u are my girl now!

Vanilla : ... (bingung)

Choco : I don't care whether u agree or disagree, I want u to be my girl

Vanilla : ... *menikmati beer*

Choco : Km sekarang pacar aku

Vanilla : ya uda, kan emang ga dikasi pilihan...

ROMANTIS GA SIHHH??? *sarcastic*

Ga ada deh itu yang namanya dongeng cinderella...it only happen in fairytale...huhuhu...

Welcome to the real relationship...or it just us...*tertawa getir*

Choco Met Vanilla

Although we have this weird-tease-and-bully-each-other relationship, but yes, we still met at the ordinary place at the ordinary time...^^

Like I was told in my previous blog I quit my job and joined new (Korean...again *sigh*) company...

It was 1st irritating day for me as a newbie at new office (it's not because I hate the office...but I hate to be a newbie with lack of friends and feel like a stranger and totally idiot >> ok not idiot, that just too much...)

So Here I was, berdiri sendirian di pojok and completely clueless for what should I do...then he was coming to me, handed me my laptop, smile...dan pegi ninggalin gw sendirian *GUBRAK*

Kesan pertama yang begitu indahnya sampe gw berasa pengen ngelempar meja (is it that hard to being nice to a newbie like meeeeee??? *emosi jiwa raga*)

Setelah insiden laptop itu...yang belakangan gw tau, ternyata dia mempunyai dendam sama gw gara2 gw telah merebut laptop yang katanya uda di lap dengan penuh kasih sayang sampe jadi indah seperti baru (seriously he said that...and YES, HE IS THAT LEBAY!!!) harus diserahkan kepada gw si anak baru (well, sadly I missed that info, otherwise I might just hang around near his desk bringing my Laptop and swing it around him...*HAHAHA* oke...sekarang gw yang lebay). And fyi...dia dengan sangat "jenius"nya meng-install windows 7 ke laptop dengan kapasitas yang menyedihkan, yang menyebabkan laptop bermasalah itu NGE-HANGdan gw harus ganti laptop karna pas di-install ulang driver-nya ga matching semua (BRAVO *tepuk tangan dengan sepenuh jiwa*)

....

Kok jadi ngelantur...T_T

Menurut pengakuan dia...he was trying to flirt with me, but seriously...

Flirt #1

Choco : gw ga tahan banget pengen ngomong ini ke lo...

Vanilla : ? (in mind : mmm u look beautiful today)

Choco : Itu pipi ga kemerahan yah?

Vanilla : (&^%$#^@%*&!@) gw alergi *sambil melengos en nahan diri buat ga nancepin garpu ke palanya hhhh~*

Flirt #2

Choco : hmm...lo ga mandi ya? kok hari ini ga wangi kaya kemarin?

Vanilla : ^!@&*^!#%$@ *ngambil stapler buat ngelempar palanya*

Flirt #3

Vanilla : *bengong* (di meja ada hot choco-nya starbucks)

Choco : Tuh buat lo, bawel banget sih minta2 hot chocolate mulu

Vanilla : *melongo* ...

Flirt #4

Choco : Gw ga suka liat lo akir2 ini...lo jelek banget...

Vanilla : *tersinggung abist dikatain jelek sama orang yang ga ganteng* enak aja gw ga jelek!!

Choco : Jelek

Vanilla : Kok lo jahat banget sih ngatain cewe jelek, itu ga sopan...

Choco : Ya kalo emang jelek, masa gw mesti bilang cantik...

Vanilla : *ngasah piso*

Flirt #5

Vanilla : Kaki gw lecet niy...sepatunya sakit, beliin tensoplast donk...>_<

Choco : mmm...tar yah, lagi bikin report

Vanilla : Jahhh...butuhnya skarang, bentar lagi meeting niy...

Choco : Tapi skarang ga bisa, lagi ngerjain report...

Vanilla : Yawda, gw beli ndiri...

Choco : Nitip pocari yah...*tanpa rasa berdosa*

Ok...So I'm out for now *mulai berasa emosi berat lagi* dasar cowo paraaaahhhhhhh!!!! T____T

Intro to (the ballad of) Choco and Vanilla~

Well...it's my 2nd blog (literally) my previous one was still exist (yaaaayyyy...well it's quite impressing since I never keep my blog for more than 1 moth without losing the password or even the username T_T)

Ok...why I compose another blog?

Well, it's simply because my boyfriend bugs me (not encourage...it's literally bug me) all the time to start to write about our relation...trust me, he will regret it since the story of him won't be that nice *very devilish grin*

What's the relation of my boyfriend with the title of this blog?

Umm...yeah because Choco is his nickname and Vanilla is mine, so this blog is mostly about our so-lack-of-Romanticisms-relationship-although-we-try-so-hard-to-make-it-happen-but-it-always-end-by-one-of-us to-ruin-it story

Choco? That sounds sweet...I bet he's really sweet like Chocolate?

Well...err...actually the reason wh he got that nick name is because he has this tanning (well...it's a softer version of dark -for your info-) skin...so it's not refer to flavor actually...but if u insist, ok he's a dark chocolate, so it's bitter *ROFTL* ok...ok...ok...he might be read it and take a revenge on me...so hunnie, u are sweet actually...but please understand that we already tried to be romantic and fail all the time, don't we?

Vanilla?

Stop asking! It's simply because I'm whiter than him ok...and it's our effort to be romantic by creating this nick name...but sadly he loves to give other girls nickname also, so it makes our nickname thingy turn into common thing (yeah...thanks to u Choco hhh~~)

Enuff for the intro I guess...so...let me jump into the story...

But maybe next time, cuz I'm already pissed of to think about the bad attitude of Choco...-_-;;;

Hunnie...they way u being nice to every women just tell that u love to flirting and STOP that before I'm going to GEPLAK u...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~~~